If 2020 Was a Song

By LaTonia

I’ve been trying to find something to describe this year, something to compare it to.

I’ve got nothing.

Someone asked me “if 2020 was a song, what would it be?” As “Stop! In the Name of Love” (Diana Ross February 1955) played in the background, I reflected on how this song related to what I, what we’re all, going through right now. “Stop in the name of love before you break my heart!”

When the song ended I told Alexa to play “My Music,” which is a playlist of songs I’ve compiled over the years according to the mood I was in.  Alexa, being her moody, temperamental self, just like the weather in Cleveland, didn’t hear me correctly or at least pretended that she didn’t and shuffled songs by Jill Scott.

“Can’t Wait” started to play as the lyrics: “There’s something on my back that I need to get off baby, the world’s been nuts/ just the other day I had to reprimand a grown-up…,” bounced off the walls. I told Alexa to stop. I repeated my request. “Play My Music.”

“Blurred Lines” by Pharrell Williams started to play. The first line, “Everybody get up,” was loud and annoying. I yelled, “Alexa play My Music!” She heard: “Play Marvin Sapp,” and started shuffling songs by him.

The first song was “He has His Hands on you.”

As He sees the tears you cry
And He shares the pain inside
And sometimes you wonder why
He allows you to go through-

Just know He has His hands on you

As the song continued to play I started to relax, I didn’t realize how tense my body was as I searched for a song to describe my year. The next song was “Never Would Have Made It.” I told Alexa to skip that song because I didn’t want to cry. She ignored me so I let it play out and sang along and cried until the end. I wanted to be in a more upbeat mood after that emotionally draining duet with Marvin so I told Alexa to play Motown songs. For those that don’t know, Alexa does what she wants to do, when she wants to do it, so of course, she starts to shuffle my music on Amazon. The first song that starts to play on my playlist is “In the Midst of It All,” by Yolanda Adams.

I’ve come through many hard trials
Through temptation on every hand
Though Satan’s tried to stop me
And place my feet on sinking sand
Through the pain and all of my sorrows
Through the tears and all of my fears
The Lord was there to keep me

For He’s kept me in the midst of it all.

As the song continued, I realized that there is no one perfect song to depict 2020 for me.

And music is healing.

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